prayer for guidance

rebel

If I were to write in a Music score, it would always be a minor key. Yet, God made us unique, one-of-a kind gifted, special person. To each of us He has given a special task to understand for Him and for the building up of His people.

I grew up without both parents beside me; there was no parental guidance at all. With the persons around me, no questions are to be asked about the facts of life, just listen to all they say and obey every errand they asked and you’re good! But then, I have always been a believer in the power of prayers. That is why I would always utter a prayer for protection and a prayer for guidance.

I was eight years old when a bible teacher taught us the Ten Commandments under a big tree on a summer day. It was the day I could never forget for it was when I learned my dos and don’ts in life. I started to believe in God, memorized each line of the commandments. I was happy as a child then, I had a God and an angel who watched over me even if I didn’t have parents beside me.

As I grew older, I became a bit tougher than any ordinary kid in order to survive; there was no one to depend on, only God and an angel watching. I would spend time talking to God and uttering praise and worship prayers and a prayer for healing and strength. I had never done bad stuffs with other kids around but always helpful to them and to anybody. Always in church, obeyed the elders at home and in school.

I began to have a relationship as a teenager, longing for attention, affection and love. Yet along the way, there seemed to be a gap, it seemed that I belong somewhere else, not fitted to be in this world. My inner self was telling me that I’m a rebel. A rebel without a cause? I didn’t have any goals, no direction and purpose in life. I joined every group that I sensed could make me a better person, yet to no avail, as if God and or the angel were no longer watching over me. Along with my searching heart, I ended up in front of a highway, waiting for a big truck to run over me. Then I remembered one of the commandments. Then I was back again in the worldly sense of life, it was empty, lonely, hard, painful and depressing.

I couldn’t forget the day when I finally made my decision, to follow Jesus. I stepped forward in a congregation present myself to go on a mission. At least, I could say now to myself I’m a rebel, finally with a cause. I would spend most of my time looking into the lives of other people and understanding their battles in life. Yet, I always say a prayer for protection to God so that He would always protect me anywhere I go.

Days later, I immersed myself into studying His word with three bibles in front of me, English version, two different dialect versions, a typewriter, a pen and a pad paper. Then I learned that I was ignoring God’s word in my life. The emptiness, loneliness, hardships, pains and depressions were part of the consequences from ignoring God.

Life is not all about me, it’s all about who my God is. The God who knew me before I was in the womb of my mother. The God who has a plan for my life, and set me apart for a certain task. With this, I am very convinced that He deserves our endless gratitude and admiration. I do hope that everyone would utter praise and worship prayers for the Lord.

I said, “Forgive me Father, melt me and mold me into the being that you always wanted me to be. Thank you for Your Son Jesus, I am saved, greatly blessed and favored with Your love.”

“Now this is the eternal life; that they may know You, the one true God, and Jesus Christ,
Whom You have sent.” John 17:3

As I grow fonder of His Word, I began to appreciate every little thing around me, like a leaf that sprouts in spring, heard the birds singing, the value of everything of His breath that give us life- the every single living thing and most especially us, are all precious to Him. Indeed, God deserves our praise and worship prayers.